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it has a distinct pattern.
its has become my new fix,
since I can no longer have you,
anymore.

It happens the same way
darkness begins to fall
and the staring begins,
the glances, the looks,
they’re mutual,
but yours still have the same effect on me,
as they always did.

Then comes the conversations,
quick comments first,
then longer chats,
by the end of the night we are having lengthy discussions
not like we used to,
but they will have to do.

Soon the touching begins,
first innocent body “bumps”
then the hands,
electricity coursing through us
quickly enough our bodies are touching on purpose,
like they once did at that black table,
unconscious, but with clear purpose.

Then it must end.
And the longing begins.
We say our goodbyes, as we do,
and I leave to my room,
where anxiety keeps me up,
consciously dreaming,
of you, of course.

I control these visions until I can’t anymore,
and I drift slowly into a shallow sleep
until I awake with a sad desperation
and fiercely powerful need for you
erupting inside of me,
as it always has,
as it always will.

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everything seems to be breaking down at the worst times.
im still in love with you and im not sure if i wanna leave anymore and i want to leave so bad and i have absolutely no idea what i want anymore and i dont know if i made the right decsion and i feel im happy with my decision and im so lost.

the emotions i feel towards you now are the worst theyve ever felt. i am nothing compared to you. i will never be as great as you. and that is the most unfortunate thing in the world.

everything was so wonderful at the beginning of the year. even the things that were absolutely horrible were good. and now, now when i need them to be good and perfect and wonderful, now theyre falling apart.

i just want to feel confident in myself and in my choices. i want to feel supported and loved and i really just want everything to fall into place.

and sooner than later, please.

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